in the library

I can't help but to think what would have happened if i were to start all over again. If I had made my choices differently.
Very little things such as if I had chosen the Jazz hostel before Alexandrie or if I had never met the people I've met through these strings of choices. If I was more prepared. If i was less prepared. If I wasn't angry when I was talking to the guy on the plateau and lost my chance to live there. If I was to take the nice chinese couple as landlords or even the nice couple at Jolicoeur as landlords. If I had kept looking instead of rushing into that apartment. If I knew about CSDM before I got to Montreal. If I'd waited or if I'd hastened. So much would have changed where I am right now.

I know it doesn't matter thinking what ifs cause nothing could change what has passed. But I couldn't help it because the confined time of a year makes these incidences so apparent. Where I am right now, in this instance, occurs through a string of events and I think it's pretty cool to watch it unfold as it did.

I'm finally out of that appartment=). Will be coming home this Saturday.

the scale

I don't feel right assigning this apartment though i think it's more easy than negotiating with my landlord. It's not right though...so hopefully she'll let me off easy without scaring me half to death. She's one coocooo lady.